A Open Letter to Our Mister TOM:
beloved FAVE -
i know what you are saying in your response to the question this month, submitted by anthonyz; but at the same TIME, i HOPE you can understand where a sizable number of your devoted fans are coming from.
on the day of your great "break out," and for a number of days following that event, tears and grief will descend and engulf us like a dark, dank, unrelenthing cloud. the despair, and loss, and pain, will be almost unbearable. but then we do know, full well, if you love deeply, once in awhile that love will tend to bite you back. but i personally elect to love, always.
part of our sadness, for some of your fans, will be because we will have never met you, personally. "up close and personal," as they say. for not even once have i heard your voice, as it comes out of your mouth. all i have are your RECORDINGS, pale reproductions of it; and all your precious, subtleties, of course, are sadly lost in them.
then too, some of your fans will mourn BECAUSE they have met you, and were able, if only briefly, to share in your particular magic and sunshine.
but on that very sad day, that has yet to come, for those of us left behind, your sunshine will go out. however, never your magic. THAT we will carry in our hearts forever.
you can not know how very much i wish, personally, i could do as you have asked, as it is indeed, your final request to all of us. if i could just follow and obey your "No grief, no, none at all," comment. but i know myself (and some of your other fans too) all too well. and this will just not happen. it will HURT beyond words, and will not go away in just a few hours. nor even in a few days. but eventually, i know the pain will lessen. however, it will never, ever go away completely. for you were so very much a part of our lives, and our innocence joy and delight ( dr who
by itself was just so very much FUN ) for so many of our shared years together, here on our little, green planet.
so if you are able, please forgive the some of us, our total inability to follow your last instructions, dear, so very dear, as they are to us.
and as for myself, personally i will not drink the champagne. though, of course, i will thank God for the love that you shared so unselfishly among us for all our virtual TIMEs together, and for your life. still, a cause to celebrate? i could do THAT only if i knew for certain your final destination in eternity. and as you have elected to not share that very personal, particular information with me ... i ask only that you try to understand my (and your other fans) points of view.